Kristi Reports on Her Kidney Transplant

" I am here were angry overcome with guilt that them down -- it. My mother and need to hit the -- I know that -- in our best hope but the complex emotions overwhelm me. Let me explain all of that -- hazy notion -- that she didn't plan I thought. -- me you know. And academia I immediately thought that yeah and want to help him get hurt herself -- frequent infections and surgery because the dialysis. But uncertainty crept up and unexpectedly. You wanna know what kinds of things keep people look at night. And a little crazy a document my content written and recorded -- some time during sleepless night. I'm thinking about that right now it for 11 in the morning yeah. Question -- you -- your collection OK here is -- side mind. Olson that he blood pressure on his head that I have been aware and are currently. -- But let her Schumacher. Went out again. --"

" And sometimes believe it or not. There is anger because I felt like it was me by default and then nobody else will step up to do it and that I felt like. It was all falling on me you know nothing happened apart and I ask me anything nothing but that's just what my immediate thought worked and I was frustrated. Had diabetes is what led to her kidney disease. And diabetes can be controlled. Hate to admit it now but then I wonder if she tried hard enough to have a -- certainly there's nothing wrong with you that is. Scary and can be overwhelming and doctors say most potential living donors have these same feeling. If that. What does this mean to me what does this mean -- mine -- life. -- what does this mean to -- my dad should I do. And that. Really people wonder does my loved one deserves it."

" This is the woman who created -- nurtured me and -- and made me who like you know. Who deserves -- I woke up 1 morning and it's not what I worry about birdie I make my decision. -- They -- much better it'll improve her life and what else is there I am honored to do it that this is still a journey in many ways. This experience has prompted needed to get healthy as possible to make the surgery and recovery easier. And I plan to continue this for the rest of my life with my family history of diabetes high blood pressure and kidney disease -- and deliberate. They already know that I have the strength and the perfect. Live alone and yeah I think it will be a new era for her and for me. What that means I don't know. You know I I do believe that I will -- feel good about it. And I don't think that's going to change no matter what happens over the next. He's -- a few years."